On Unseeing



So it’s been years – yes, years – since I posted anything here. I recently started a little project over on my website and I thought why don’t I post it here as well. So, without further ado.

On Unseeing

I remember the first time I read John Berger’s Ways of Seeing. I was just starting University and I found an old yellowed copy at the used bookstore nearby. For anyone who doesn’t know, Berger’s work rose out of a British television series in the 70’s of the same title. Throughout the program and book, Berger discusses the many ways we see things, not the physical aspect of it all but the societal and political convention as from which we view art. And I might add, therefore, the world.

His book has been a long standing first year art student read – or at least it should be if its not anymore. Not an assigned read, but a stumble-across brittle paged paperback that each aspiring artist should at least pick up once.

I’m not really going to talk about Berger – go read it. But the concept of what he was exploring about got me thinking about things. I just turned 42 years old. I have been creating art, living life, working jobs, and raising a family for a while now. A big part of me feels like I should have a little more figured out by now, a little more smooth sailing, a little less seat of my pants. But that is not the case. For whatever reason 42 was a bit more jarring to my delicate psyche than 40, and Berger popped into my head.

I think he was almost right – we need to adjust our ways of seeing. Almost. What I really think I need is to adjust my ways of unseeing. So much of what I do, my roles in life, have a seen set of standards, of expectations; of things I feel like I should know how to do. Or at least I feel like other people expect me to know how to do. But is that true?

This idea makes perfect sense to me when I put it in the context of painting. In my artwork I gravitate toward exploring the unseen. I am interested in what surrounds us but is not in physical form. When I am painting, or drawing, or doing whatever it is I do in my studio this makes sense. I am able through paint or line to see the hidden abstracted mess that weaves my life together. It’s the translation of this way of thinking to outside that studio that is a stumble for me. I forget, when I am picking out apples at the grocery store, that connection between people is a sacred thing. I forget again, when I’m vacuuming the living room, that the phrase living room is a beautiful idea that deserves hours of exploration. And I forget, as I go over the monthly bills one more time, that the riches I would really seek could never line the walls of my bank account.

So, 42 is going to be my year of unseeing. Of learning to unsee everything in front of me. I’m afraid the common has lost its glory and the everyday has lost its beauty. That is not how we are called to live. For over twenty years now I have created and painted and thought about how my work could speak about unseen things to others. Now it’s time to see how the act of creating this work could speak into the unseen in my everyday.

lines and colors

New Work, Processing

start to Finish-2

so, here it is…I documented this little painting from start to finish which I must say was a strange experience. I don’t usually have my phone in the studio nor am I paying attention to my surroundings that much. So to stop and snap a picture periodically felt odd.

This little painting is what I call a painting sketch. It is done on primed millboard and quicker than most my paintings. It is also much cheaper (if you’re in the market) and will be one of the first paintings I offer for sale on my website. Web sales is a new venture for me, I usually stick to galleries and commissions. If you’re interested in it, you can find it on my Shop page at the end of the week.

Now, on to the process.


and there we have it.

ready. steady. go.

New Work, Processing


People often want to know about an artist’s process. “Where did that come from, did you make it up, what is it?” I get these questions all the time. Along with, “I wish I could watch you create.” So, I’ve decided to post my way through some paintings. Just for fun for you and a kind of curiosity for me. I’ve never really documented a painting.

So, here we go…

How can something so small take so long? That’s right, it’s a website redesign!

New Work

DONESo, my website is small, under ten pages. Yet the process of redesigning it (which was prompted by the stifled laughter I received when I mentioned I edited it in Dreamweaver)(it was deserved laughter) took me so long and it’s still not done. It is, however, miles better than what it was and I am happy to say it is live! I will continue to add galleries to it and actually update it (now that it’s actually easy! Sorry, Dreamweaver)

So have a look, enjoy. Don’t tell me about any typos. too soon.